When you realize you do not exist, Life hits you with an impact so hard that one may believe they were having a heart attack. They many contemplate suicide. They think about all the bad shit in the world. They think about the atrocities that Life is capable of. It considers the fact that we really are alone when it comes down to it, because no one can take the pain away. No drugs. No Procedures. No therapy. No Human words.
You are stuck with this Life and Who you are. There is no escape.
What will you do with it?
First realize that you do not Exist.